I found the main themes of both lectures (context and identity) interested me equally.
However, my ‘Ah-Ha’ moment happened during the identity lecture. During the lecture on knowing thyself, Jason mentioned a quote from Socrates: “an unexamined life is not worth living”. Jason said that we have come to Plymouth College of Art to examine our lives.
When I was looking into this idea further, I found out that this could be different from individual to individual. To Socrates it meant “the attainment of wisdom and intellectual humility”, to Seneca it meant “to have a meaningful goal and strive to perfect one’s character”, but to me I didn’t know what it meant.
For a long time, I felt like lost myself, I didn’t know what I wanted to create. I had ideas for videos, but nothing I was excited about, or was even passionate about. Nothing I followed through because I was my own worst critic, and I stopped halfway through because I thought it was rubbish. But when talking about how films, such as ‘Avatar’ and John Carpenter’s ‘They Live’, can be understood in relation to their context during the seminar, and that context could even be the experience of the director, it got me thinking into how filmmakers can find themselves in their work.
An examined life for a filmmaker is creating great films that they want to create. I feel, much like Truman Burbank from the Truman Show, that I’m on a ‘spiritual journey’ in Plymouth College of Art to find myself and what I want to create and do, and that the videos/films I create or edit will be the be the signs on that journey. At the end of that road I would of found out more about my identity; who I am. To get to that point, I know now that I need to follow through with ideas and videos, and to practice in the area of practise I want to get in to, even if I start to overthink whether it’s good or not, because that’s how I will find my identity.
This was my “Ah-Ha” moment.